My birthday is round the corner. however, i celebrated today. i'm so happy to enjoy my family warmth. My cake was fabulous. my gifts were more fabulous then last year. one crumpler bee's knees, one AA nike dunk high premium sb, one oakley dictate and one rive gauche cake.

my warm family:


my crumpler bee's knees:


my AA nike:





this are all my gifts (except my oakley). anyone wanna try guessing the total price of all the gifts (oakley, crumpler, nike, cake)? (:

blogging now at such a crazy timing. A week of exams has just past. this marks the end of term 1. however there is this ominous feeling lurking in me. i am afraid of getting back my results to see that i have become the bottom of the class, yet again. everything is falling apart. i cannot handle my studies well, i cannot handle my emotional self. i cannot handle my life. i need some time to reflect. maybe meditation will do a good job. math test was insanely hard today and i am afraid of failing. However, whats done's done. there is nothing more i can do but work harder for the next test!
need to sleep, good night my friends.

lastly, how come you have a few months to live? sounds bad!

fuck my life. seriously, i definitely need an escapade from reality, this world is crashing down on me, i wake up everyday feeling screwed, suffering from insomnia and i piss off everyone i encounter. what's more, i hallucinated today saw many strange things and now i feel totally weird...
things have not been going well...
hoping for a better tomorrow...
next i need to draw some lines to prevent myself from drowning in my own swarm of problems... what is the solution to all this troubles? when will they end? am i going nuts? or is this world more and more f***ed up?
I'm desperately searching for an answer and a way of liberalising myself from my own worries however i've this ominous premonition that i will never find the solution...
what should i do?
after all this while, it suddenly dawned on me that smiling doesn't always work. smiling is but a tool of actors or actresses. it could well be the ultimate mask to the ultimate sadness.
you might well be a damn good actress, you might well be good at running from your problems. but all this would never help. you need to muster up all your courage, you must be brave, you must be strong! Put your act together. Never run away, face it, deal with it, conquer it! the fight is yours and only yours.

emo pig,
keith

haven't been blogging for a few days. things have been well. however many things are falling apart. what irony... exam results are screwing up... many unnecessary things are bothering me. haizzz need to clear up my mind.
still walking in the tunnel... yearning so much to see the light...

Today was a bad day for me. Did not sleep at all, flipped around on my bed with worries jamming my head. English test was disgustingly hard.

Now as i'm typing, i feel this heavy sense of apology towards someone. My apologies don't mean a thing, my words are just wind by your ears. i am nothing but a person that knows only how to hurt you. i am lost now. no sense of direction, no one to lead me on, no idea what to do to alleviate this situation and no idea how to bring back that smile you always used to have. i have nothing to say for i am equally disappointed and infuriated with myself as you are. i cannot apologise for it doesn't mean anything. i have betrayed your trust and i'm fully aware that you are not ever going to trust me again. haizz, its all my fault! what should i do? lastly, i hope our friendship is not at stake. Will be leaving this world for a while...

girls are bizarre creatures! haha. They can change their mood as and when they like which makes them unpredictable volcanoes. One moment they look like they can never be any happier in their life and in a flash they look and behave like a emo kid on the brink of commiting suicide. they bring people around them for a spin as their feelings change. They can lift ur feelings and bring them down anytime they like. One moment you are on cloud nine, the other you are in the unknown depths of the unexplored oceans. They are caring yet nonchalant, kind yet cruel, sweet yet bitter. However, we guys must consider ourselves lucky to have these one of a kind creatures living with us! how boring would it get if they did not existed. Haha! to all the guys reading my blog, what do you think? And to all the girls reading my blog, i apologise if i insulted you in anyway, feel free to comment.

until next time,
keith

Grats! i just officially became the maid of a princess! haha. Don't even know what am i doing. maybe i'm being too high! Or maybe it is my weak spot again. haha

Just came back from a row of visits. now at home waiting for guests. Oh i hear a doorbell see u guys! happy cny and valentine's day!

feeling weird after aoxiang meeting... sense of nostalgia keeps enveloping me. feeling lonely now. luckily, i have a few v good friends that nvr push me away. oh sorry if i ever piss you off in our convos. CNY and valetine's day is round the corner. looking forward to see all my cousins and talk cock. its getting late, gotta go. lastly, 祝福我的朋友在新的一年：前途平坦，兜里有款，甜长苦短；薪水翻番，好吃好穿，常有新欢，追求的路程越走越宽！。 Wish all of u a good year ahead (especially mindy, ping shuang, vanessa, meiying and yong hong! good luck for your all your coming tests and most importantly ur O levels. if u need help, i will be more than willing to help.) To all my hci and other friends, good luck with ur studies and to those in search for love, may u find ur princess or your prince. Most importantly to my few v good friends, hope that in this new year, our friendship will be even stronger. i wanna thank you especially for sharing my troubles, hence i resolve to help u all as much as i can (((((: Thanks a million!

Today's school CNY celebration was normal. Finally got the chance to sit in lt4. haha. anyway i went to plaza sing after the celebration for aoxiang class gathering. it was so cool to see everyone again [meiying we miss u! (((((: ] anyway we had a whale of a time. we watched a movie, dined together and played arcade. however 好花不常开，好景不常在。 we had to say goodbye. even though it is over, i will not cry. i will smile because it happened. (trying to hold back my tears as i type) i am so elated to receive valentine cards! first in my life. haha. loved it so much. this will definitely be a memory i will treasure. thank you everyone for helping me with the organising (i know my planning skill sucks) and making this trip so successful! Have a happy valentine's day!

Haven't been blogging for a while. Haizz just got back my math test today. The marks was relatively good but i made a few careless mistakes and got super pissed off with myself. haizzz. A few more days to CNY. I'm going to Plaza Singapura on thursday with a few friends. What should i get for valentine's day?

Hi guys,
Fretting over what to do on 12th feb. Any suggestions? Desperately need help. Now talking to many people on msn. Feel so occupied and meaningful haha. Would like my world to be surrounded by nice ppl like those i talk to often. haha. Going to sleep soon though. Woots math test. dunno if i will get full marks or not. haizz...

P.S. Finally updated. thanks to u LMY! haha

Today's math test was relatively easy unlike previous tests. However i'm freaking out. i feel as if i have done many questions wrong. haizz. just throw it out of my mind. Clearing the humongous amount of homework i have accumulated.

Preparing for math test now. hope i can get an a1 for this test. Cya guys... Good luck to everyone in 4S1 for the math test.

What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm losing interest in everything i like. Friends, playing com games, music, playing the piano etc... I desperately need something to push me on in life. My whole world is twirling round and round.

Sometihing keeps me wondering, I have no idea why people many keep their sad stuff to themselves. Come on guys there are always people here that will hear out your worriers. Just raise out your hand and there m=will be many to pull you up. Here's to to all my friends out there that are going through a rough time. CHEER UP! Life has its high and lows. so don't worry too much. 世上虽然没有永远的快乐，但是也没有永远的哀伤。

Today was considered quite bad and uneventful. i screwed up both languages today. haizzz. this is so crazy. Today is marcus's bday but i dunno why am i so low. need to get my emotions right...
Oh marcus was like frantically tapping his phone screen today for the whole day. haha he sure is a lady magnet - texting 5 girls at one time. a feat i would never achieve in my life haha.
Happy birthday marcus, bryan and jun yi! Best wishes to you.
Math test in 2 days...
boarding school in 4 days...
CNY in 9 days...
love in ? days...

This is so hard to organise. really need all the help i can get...

Hi all,

This is regarding the aoxiang outing + special guest (furama and keith and yan perng haha) on 12th feb.
The details are tentative and subject to changes.
We will most probably be meeting at Orchard mrt. From there, we can either go to E2MAX at cine L9, book a chamber and play some games, or we can head down to either shaw plaza or plaza sing to catch a movie.
we can either have lunch and dinner together or just lunch.
Leave any suggestions in my cbox.
Please pass this message to all aoxiang ppl and junda + yan perng if u see them.
will fix the timing at a later date.
Most importantly, we might be doing last minutes changes. PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS give me alternatives if u don't like my plan. But do consider the location and feasibility of the alternative. (((((((:

Thanks,
Keith

Today was the longest day in the week. So glad it is over... math test on friday... Marcus's birthday is tomorrow. haha! he is older than me but still shorter. no offence chong! Gotta go and prepare for my test and do some homework. Cya guys!

P.S. totally looking forward to 12th feb.

I have been studying for a few hours now. Although i was studying on the surface. My heart was actually thinking about many things. I desperately needed to let it out. Luckily, there was this one person that bothered to hear what i had to say and offered me a point of view i could not get from anyone. I am so glad to have this person as a friend. Thanks alot, my v. good friend!

Why am i slacking now? I don't know. What will be my project title? I don't know. Why do i get so emotional nowadays? I don't know. Is my lifelong goal achievable? I don't know. Would I get good grades for my tests? I don't know. Will the outing on 12th feb be a success? I don't know. Will iphone 4g come out this year? Will i get it? So many questions to sort out... so little time... Haiz life must go on after all.

My birthday is round the corner. however, i celebrated today. i'm so happy to enjoy my family warmth. My cake was fabulous. my gifts were more fabulous then last year. one crumpler bee's knees, one AA nike dunk high premium sb, one oakley dictate and one rive gauche cake.

my warm family:


my crumpler bee's knees:


my AA nike:





this are all my gifts (except my oakley). anyone wanna try guessing the total price of all the gifts (oakley, crumpler, nike, cake)? (:

blogging now at such a crazy timing. A week of exams has just past. this marks the end of term 1. however there is this ominous feeling lurking in me. i am afraid of getting back my results to see that i have become the bottom of the class, yet again. everything is falling apart. i cannot handle my studies well, i cannot handle my emotional self. i cannot handle my life. i need some time to reflect. maybe meditation will do a good job. math test was insanely hard today and i am afraid of failing. However, whats done's done. there is nothing more i can do but work harder for the next test!
need to sleep, good night my friends.

lastly, how come you have a few months to live? sounds bad!

fuck my life. seriously, i definitely need an escapade from reality, this world is crashing down on me, i wake up everyday feeling screwed, suffering from insomnia and i piss off everyone i encounter. what's more, i hallucinated today saw many strange things and now i feel totally weird...
things have not been going well...
hoping for a better tomorrow...
next i need to draw some lines to prevent myself from drowning in my own swarm of problems... what is the solution to all this troubles? when will they end? am i going nuts? or is this world more and more f***ed up?
I'm desperately searching for an answer and a way of liberalising myself from my own worries however i've this ominous premonition that i will never find the solution...
what should i do?
after all this while, it suddenly dawned on me that smiling doesn't always work. smiling is but a tool of actors or actresses. it could well be the ultimate mask to the ultimate sadness.
you might well be a damn good actress, you might well be good at running from your problems. but all this would never help. you need to muster up all your courage, you must be brave, you must be strong! Put your act together. Never run away, face it, deal with it, conquer it! the fight is yours and only yours.

emo pig,
keith

haven't been blogging for a few days. things have been well. however many things are falling apart. what irony... exam results are screwing up... many unnecessary things are bothering me. haizzz need to clear up my mind.
still walking in the tunnel... yearning so much to see the light...

Today was a bad day for me. Did not sleep at all, flipped around on my bed with worries jamming my head. English test was disgustingly hard.

Now as i'm typing, i feel this heavy sense of apology towards someone. My apologies don't mean a thing, my words are just wind by your ears. i am nothing but a person that knows only how to hurt you. i am lost now. no sense of direction, no one to lead me on, no idea what to do to alleviate this situation and no idea how to bring back that smile you always used to have. i have nothing to say for i am equally disappointed and infuriated with myself as you are. i cannot apologise for it doesn't mean anything. i have betrayed your trust and i'm fully aware that you are not ever going to trust me again. haizz, its all my fault! what should i do? lastly, i hope our friendship is not at stake. Will be leaving this world for a while...

girls are bizarre creatures! haha. They can change their mood as and when they like which makes them unpredictable volcanoes. One moment they look like they can never be any happier in their life and in a flash they look and behave like a emo kid on the brink of commiting suicide. they bring people around them for a spin as their feelings change. They can lift ur feelings and bring them down anytime they like. One moment you are on cloud nine, the other you are in the unknown depths of the unexplored oceans. They are caring yet nonchalant, kind yet cruel, sweet yet bitter. However, we guys must consider ourselves lucky to have these one of a kind creatures living with us! how boring would it get if they did not existed. Haha! to all the guys reading my blog, what do you think? And to all the girls reading my blog, i apologise if i insulted you in anyway, feel free to comment.

until next time,
keith

Grats! i just officially became the maid of a princess! haha. Don't even know what am i doing. maybe i'm being too high! Or maybe it is my weak spot again. haha

Just came back from a row of visits. now at home waiting for guests. Oh i hear a doorbell see u guys! happy cny and valentine's day!

feeling weird after aoxiang meeting... sense of nostalgia keeps enveloping me. feeling lonely now. luckily, i have a few v good friends that nvr push me away. oh sorry if i ever piss you off in our convos. CNY and valetine's day is round the corner. looking forward to see all my cousins and talk cock. its getting late, gotta go. lastly, 祝福我的朋友在新的一年：前途平坦，兜里有款，甜长苦短；薪水翻番，好吃好穿，常有新欢，追求的路程越走越宽！。 Wish all of u a good year ahead (especially mindy, ping shuang, vanessa, meiying and yong hong! good luck for your all your coming tests and most importantly ur O levels. if u need help, i will be more than willing to help.) To all my hci and other friends, good luck with ur studies and to those in search for love, may u find ur princess or your prince. Most importantly to my few v good friends, hope that in this new year, our friendship will be even stronger. i wanna thank you especially for sharing my troubles, hence i resolve to help u all as much as i can (((((: Thanks a million!

Today's school CNY celebration was normal. Finally got the chance to sit in lt4. haha. anyway i went to plaza sing after the celebration for aoxiang class gathering. it was so cool to see everyone again [meiying we miss u! (((((: ] anyway we had a whale of a time. we watched a movie, dined together and played arcade. however 好花不常开，好景不常在。 we had to say goodbye. even though it is over, i will not cry. i will smile because it happened. (trying to hold back my tears as i type) i am so elated to receive valentine cards! first in my life. haha. loved it so much. this will definitely be a memory i will treasure. thank you everyone for helping me with the organising (i know my planning skill sucks) and making this trip so successful! Have a happy valentine's day!

Haven't been blogging for a while. Haizz just got back my math test today. The marks was relatively good but i made a few careless mistakes and got super pissed off with myself. haizzz. A few more days to CNY. I'm going to Plaza Singapura on thursday with a few friends. What should i get for valentine's day?

Hi guys,
Fretting over what to do on 12th feb. Any suggestions? Desperately need help. Now talking to many people on msn. Feel so occupied and meaningful haha. Would like my world to be surrounded by nice ppl like those i talk to often. haha. Going to sleep soon though. Woots math test. dunno if i will get full marks or not. haizz...

P.S. Finally updated. thanks to u LMY! haha

Today's math test was relatively easy unlike previous tests. However i'm freaking out. i feel as if i have done many questions wrong. haizz. just throw it out of my mind. Clearing the humongous amount of homework i have accumulated.

Preparing for math test now. hope i can get an a1 for this test. Cya guys... Good luck to everyone in 4S1 for the math test.

What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm losing interest in everything i like. Friends, playing com games, music, playing the piano etc... I desperately need something to push me on in life. My whole world is twirling round and round.

Sometihing keeps me wondering, I have no idea why people many keep their sad stuff to themselves. Come on guys there are always people here that will hear out your worriers. Just raise out your hand and there m=will be many to pull you up. Here's to to all my friends out there that are going through a rough time. CHEER UP! Life has its high and lows. so don't worry too much. 世上虽然没有永远的快乐，但是也没有永远的哀伤。

Today was considered quite bad and uneventful. i screwed up both languages today. haizzz. this is so crazy. Today is marcus's bday but i dunno why am i so low. need to get my emotions right...
Oh marcus was like frantically tapping his phone screen today for the whole day. haha he sure is a lady magnet - texting 5 girls at one time. a feat i would never achieve in my life haha.
Happy birthday marcus, bryan and jun yi! Best wishes to you.
Math test in 2 days...
boarding school in 4 days...
CNY in 9 days...
love in ? days...

This is so hard to organise. really need all the help i can get...

Hi all,

This is regarding the aoxiang outing + special guest (furama and keith and yan perng haha) on 12th feb.
The details are tentative and subject to changes.
We will most probably be meeting at Orchard mrt. From there, we can either go to E2MAX at cine L9, book a chamber and play some games, or we can head down to either shaw plaza or plaza sing to catch a movie.
we can either have lunch and dinner together or just lunch.
Leave any suggestions in my cbox.
Please pass this message to all aoxiang ppl and junda + yan perng if u see them.
will fix the timing at a later date.
Most importantly, we might be doing last minutes changes. PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS give me alternatives if u don't like my plan. But do consider the location and feasibility of the alternative. (((((((:

Thanks,
Keith

Today was the longest day in the week. So glad it is over... math test on friday... Marcus's birthday is tomorrow. haha! he is older than me but still shorter. no offence chong! Gotta go and prepare for my test and do some homework. Cya guys!

P.S. totally looking forward to 12th feb.

I have been studying for a few hours now. Although i was studying on the surface. My heart was actually thinking about many things. I desperately needed to let it out. Luckily, there was this one person that bothered to hear what i had to say and offered me a point of view i could not get from anyone. I am so glad to have this person as a friend. Thanks alot, my v. good friend!

Why am i slacking now? I don't know. What will be my project title? I don't know. Why do i get so emotional nowadays? I don't know. Is my lifelong goal achievable? I don't know. Would I get good grades for my tests? I don't know. Will the outing on 12th feb be a success? I don't know. Will iphone 4g come out this year? Will i get it? So many questions to sort out... so little time... Haiz life must go on after all.