Some parts of my life move faster than the other parts, especially my emotions. Well one week of constant doses of emotions seemed like a year. It seems exceptionally accelerated as if i have gone through alot, but actually it is just but a few days of ups and downs. Somehow liking someone till the brink of love can really drive you crazy, its the kind of thing lives of you like a parasite, it seeps away your energy slowly without you even knowing. Until the point you realise it, you are most probably half dead inside, a practical living dead.

Well i guess i'm kinda a pussy too, to afraid to face up to it, to afraid to tell it, who am i to tell others to man up and just do it when i myself can't even do it. well i guess, i will continue to be a pussy, running away from the problem after all proves the easiest and quickest escapade to a somewhat peaceful life.

Anyways, its not the main point, my love life, or should i say self-perceived love, crashing down on me is but a small part of my worries. my one big worry is now regarding the TRUTH - how stuff works. One scientist stated: "Theories are perceived increasingly not as revealed truths, but as working tools for the understanding of natural processes" i totally agree to this but its very depressing, it shows that the more we know the more we actually do not. By acknowledging this statement, whatever i have learnt does not actually shed any light on the question "why".

Science in it self has became more and more provisional, theories come and go, "truths" bend into many alternate shapes. So what is real and what is not? what is true and what is false? Being an relatively inquisitive prick, i have always scoured for answers as to how we all started, what happened before the big bang? And how was it possible for the big bang to happen if there was nothing at the beginning before it. And what is "nothing"? And if the big bang really occurred how did humans or living creatures arise from matter and inanimate objects? gahhh anyone who chances upon my blog and have the answers to these questions please enlighten me.

Now i know why people need a religion, these questions might just drive one crazy. I think atheists should not believe in science too considered it was once proclaimed as an alternate religion.

Well, after all i'm still a student, i still have to believe in "science" study it and worship it for my life pivots about it. So... Carpe Diem... cya guys

At last it is finally over, no more am i tormented, no more am i in this limbo of paradoxical trash.

the teenage world is a world filled with many things including love and stuff. it is filled with angst, it is filled with dilemmas, it is filled with choices, it is filled with drama, with happiness and with pain.

with love abound in most of the school, it is not hard to find yourself hard pressed to get into one especially if you have some weak resolve (no offense meant). but do people who want that girl so bad, want that relationship so bad ever question themselves what is it all for? get real, think of it this way, what happens to your freedom, what happens to your social circle, what happens to your life? Does it bring you places? does your happily ever after actually makes you happy? has it ever occurred to you that getting into a relationship is like tying yourself up? the deeper you go the more windings there are around you, up to the point your are mummified. i might just be a fucking douche overgeneralizing now but no one is gonna give you a grip in life except you yourself.

i will fight fire with fire now.

quote of the day: take it with a pinch of salt.

Some parts of my life move faster than the other parts, especially my emotions. Well one week of constant doses of emotions seemed like a year. It seems exceptionally accelerated as if i have gone through alot, but actually it is just but a few days of ups and downs. Somehow liking someone till the brink of love can really drive you crazy, its the kind of thing lives of you like a parasite, it seeps away your energy slowly without you even knowing. Until the point you realise it, you are most probably half dead inside, a practical living dead.

Well i guess i'm kinda a pussy too, to afraid to face up to it, to afraid to tell it, who am i to tell others to man up and just do it when i myself can't even do it. well i guess, i will continue to be a pussy, running away from the problem after all proves the easiest and quickest escapade to a somewhat peaceful life.

Anyways, its not the main point, my love life, or should i say self-perceived love, crashing down on me is but a small part of my worries. my one big worry is now regarding the TRUTH - how stuff works. One scientist stated: "Theories are perceived increasingly not as revealed truths, but as working tools for the understanding of natural processes" i totally agree to this but its very depressing, it shows that the more we know the more we actually do not. By acknowledging this statement, whatever i have learnt does not actually shed any light on the question "why".

Science in it self has became more and more provisional, theories come and go, "truths" bend into many alternate shapes. So what is real and what is not? what is true and what is false? Being an relatively inquisitive prick, i have always scoured for answers as to how we all started, what happened before the big bang? And how was it possible for the big bang to happen if there was nothing at the beginning before it. And what is "nothing"? And if the big bang really occurred how did humans or living creatures arise from matter and inanimate objects? gahhh anyone who chances upon my blog and have the answers to these questions please enlighten me.

Now i know why people need a religion, these questions might just drive one crazy. I think atheists should not believe in science too considered it was once proclaimed as an alternate religion.

Well, after all i'm still a student, i still have to believe in "science" study it and worship it for my life pivots about it. So... Carpe Diem... cya guys

At last it is finally over, no more am i tormented, no more am i in this limbo of paradoxical trash.

the teenage world is a world filled with many things including love and stuff. it is filled with angst, it is filled with dilemmas, it is filled with choices, it is filled with drama, with happiness and with pain.

with love abound in most of the school, it is not hard to find yourself hard pressed to get into one especially if you have some weak resolve (no offense meant). but do people who want that girl so bad, want that relationship so bad ever question themselves what is it all for? get real, think of it this way, what happens to your freedom, what happens to your social circle, what happens to your life? Does it bring you places? does your happily ever after actually makes you happy? has it ever occurred to you that getting into a relationship is like tying yourself up? the deeper you go the more windings there are around you, up to the point your are mummified. i might just be a fucking douche overgeneralizing now but no one is gonna give you a grip in life except you yourself.

i will fight fire with fire now.

quote of the day: take it with a pinch of salt.